I’ve got home from work and feel really tired this evening. All I really want to do is nap.
Self-care isn’t really a priority today. Today is more about self-preservation, perhaps. I had a busy day in work (but not a bad one) and, now that I’m home, I just want to do nothing.
I sometimes wonder if living alone makes it easier to fall into the trap of doing nothing at home: just getting in, eating and then slobbing out until bedtime. If there was someone else here I’d at least interact with them, even if it was still whilst reclining on the sofa. I know that I can’t really blame singledom, though.
It doesn’t help that it’s a drizzly evening so I haven’t been for a walk. I may well be missing the fresh air.
Also, my mindfulness practice has fallen by the wayside. The course of sessions in work is now over so there isn’t that weekly practice, even, to keep me going. I have a couple of apps I can use at home but haven’t been spurred into doing that for a while.
Last night, I indulged in the simple pleasure of watching a film and a TV show I’ve been looking forward to in bed. That felt like a treat at the end of a long Monday.
Perhaps it’s time for me to reflect some more on which aspects of self-care are most effective for me and to make more of an effort to engage with the useful, positive stuff. A bit of evaluation to prioritise what nurtures me.
This post feels quite whiny and I’m a bit disappointed in that, but I guess we all have our off days. Who knows, maybe I just need to keep mixing things up a bit. It could be that all the stuff I’ve been trying is useful for me in different situations. A pick ‘n’ mix self-care approach might be the way forward.